Searching for the Truth

The clouds look really close when I'm here on the 5th floor.

My one linguistics prof is kind of hot. Apparently I'm the only one who think this and I get laughed at for it. Oh well. He has an accent and so that adds to it I suppose. ...And he's really not that old (I think).

I filled out a college application today. It's true. I'm going to drop out of UM and go to Delta. No, actually, that last thing is not true (thank goodness). In all truthfulness, I am too far advanced to go to Delta at this point. For what I'm thinking about doing, I could not even go to Delta if I wanted to (which I don't). What is it that I want to do, you ask? I shall tell you. I am considering doing 2 majors and 1 minor and it will be very difficult to do this in the 2.5 years I have left. So I was thinking about taking summer classes at SVSU and that is what the application was for. Of course, if I stayed here over the summer I could just go to UM and no application would be necessary. Oh, and the reason why Delta is not an option is because UM does not accept transfer credits from commumity colleges after the student in question has already accumulated 60 credits, which I will have done by the end of this semester.

The past 24 hours were pretty much horrible. It all started around 10 pm last night with a few little things which I won't go into but which definitely played a role in the suckiness. I got back to my room (because I was in the League) and started doing stuff on my computer. I decided to burn a CD and while I was doing that my computer became very slow and so I did some calc. As I was doing calc, I realized that I could not even do the easy stuff at this point and that was quite upsetting and so I gave up. Then I went back to my computer (it was about midnight at this time) and saw that it was frozen. Great. I restarted it (and lost my partially completed blog post in the process) but then it was running really really slow and I got really mad at it and turned it off. I didn't know if there was a virus or if my computer was dying or what, and so that was stressful. I don't have $1000 laying around with which to buy a new computer. And sometime in there I pulled a muscle in my right upper leg and that was so bad that I was limping for the rest of the night. Then I went to turn my phone off of vibrate and hit the wrong button and ended up locking it up. My phone is still out of service because I can't figure out how to get it off of locked mode and so I can't use it whatsoever. And now I felt so disconnected from the world with no computer and no cell phone. Then I went to bed. This morning I woke up an hour earlier than usual because I had to pee very badly and that was annoying. Then when I went to take a shower, I had to wait for 10 minutes because the showers were full and so I was worried I would be late for class. Then there was something else involving people and things on which I won't elaborate. A little later as I was walking to class, I bit the side of my tongue, and then in German I was asked a question by the prof and I totally made myself look like a bumbling idiot in front of everyone. We got our essays back and I didn't do bad but it wasn't great either. Calc just made me more depressed about my math abilities. Lunch with Jenny and class with Brianna and Tracy was really uplifting though... the rare good parts of my day. Actually, the rest of my day was much better (except for the strange stomach pain).

Things have gotten back from the suckiness now. My phone is better and my computer is ok and calc still isn't going well, but the exam was moved back. My tongue still hurts but not badly and my leg is better. I got over the German thing and some other things, so it's all good.

There is a very disproportionate ratio of male friends to female friends in my life here at UM, and it upsets me. Many of my very best and closest friends back home are guys and here I don't even think there is one guy who would qualify as a good or close friend. I mean, I do have guy friends here but not at the level that I would like or am used to.

Anyway, I have some new CDs... yeah, ok I'm done now.