Crud

I seem to have an obsession with Christmas. I'm already thinking about what to get people, and I've already bought a few gifts. I think part of the obsession is because when Christmas comes, this semester will be over. So I just keep thinking, "I can't wait until Christmas".

It always happens that I look forward to something and then I'm incredibly disappointed. This time, it was the weekend. I was looking forward to this weekend. On Thursday, Nidhal and I were going to Toledo to check out the university there, and then we were going to stop in Dundee on the way home to shop at a few stores. On Friday and Saturday, there was the MITESOL conference at EMU. Even though I wasn't very enthused about, I was looking forward to it because it's something that doesn't happen often... it's a special event. And then on Sunday, we were going to do something 'fallish'. Well, the disappointments began right away.

We went to Toledo, and that was fine, but not very special. The weather was kind of overcast. And then we stopped in Dundee. Cabella's was somehow boring this time around, and I didn't enjoy it. And then Nidhal was too tired to do anything else, so we headed for home. Of course, the sun then decided to come out and it became a beautiful day. But we were in for the day, so I didn't get to enjoy it. Weekend Day 1 = flop. The next day, I was still kind of bummed out from the amazing underachieving of the previous day, and so I didn't even want to go to the conference. But I did and it was ok, but it wasn't as cool or fun as last year. Also, I found out/realized today that my relaxing little-work weekend was just the opposite. Weekend Day 2 = meh. On the next day, I had to get up early, and while I semi-enjoyed the conference, it still wasn't as fun as last year. And then, when I got home, I was so tired from getting up early, that I couldn't concentrate on anything. Weekend Day 3 = crap. Finally, we come to today. It started out ok, but it started late. Despite my love for sleeping, I don't like starting my day late. Well, by the time we were done with breakfast, it was about 1pm. And then someone was grumpy and left to go meet a friend. So here I am now, the end of the weekend, with a ton of homework, in a bad mood, having not enjoyed a bit of the weekend that was supposed to be the best in a long time. Talk about disappointment.

Delusions - There is no greater joy than soaring high on the wings of your dreams, except maybe the joy of watching a dreamer who has nowhere to land but in the ocean of reality.

Pessimism - Every dark cloud has a silver lining, but lightning kills hundreds of people each year who are trying to find it. .