Trust Yourself

Aha! Ok, no "aha".

So today I got an email which said, "You have been accepted to the study abroad program in Freiburg for the AY 2006-07. Congratulations!" Hmm. Kalli had said last night that I wouldn't get an email until Thursday or Friday and I was totally unprepared for it today. Part of me knew I was going to be rejected and part of me thought that I would probably be accepted. In a sense, being accepted is almost worse than being rejected. Because I am in the complete middle between the options and because I am incapable of making decisions, life would have been much easier if they simply would have said "No, you suck, go away." It's not that I don't want to go, it's not that at all. I just don't know if going is the best thing for my current goals and desires. Sure I want to be immersed in the language and culture and have that experience and sure I love German, but I also love language in general and really want to learn other languages besides German. What better place to do that than at college? Then again, what better time to go abroad than in college? I really don't know what to do.

No puedo entender español.

There was a lunch after church on Sunday. It was quite enjoyable and free (which is always good). Good company, good conversation... and overall good time. There were sloppy joes and salad and various other things, but I stayed with those two things.

In the evening, Kalli had the class over to his house for cake. The cake was amazingly good. The music, on the other hand... No, the music was fine, just a bit odd at times (The Legendary Pink Dots, Skinny Puppy).

I've commented on this every semester so far, so I can't break tradition now. I have only 6 instructors this semester and 2 of them are American (or so I assume): the campus band director and one of my German instructors. There are also 2 Canadians (the linguistics instructors) and 1 Austrian (the other German instructor). I don't know about the other one because that class hasn't started yet. Of the Canadians, one has a stereotypical accent (saying "aboot" instead of "about") and the other one has a French accent.

Was jetzt? I didn't say a word in my German class today. I felt bad because I had just written him an email about my lack of participation, but I just couldn't get myself to speak.